Divide our sorrows..

Situation X:

Almost everyone who loves you and are family are against you on one decision you think and believe is the right one for you. This opposition has to do with some conservative thinking and traditions. Everyone tries to emotionally blackmail you into giving up your decision. You fight alone. And trust me, that hurts like hell.

P.S. This is not a situation where I am a drug or alcohol addict or any weird shit like that.

My way of life:

Always fight till your last muscle gives up, when you really believe in something. It is always difficult to live by your own principles and rules when your family tries to force theirs on you. You are branded as selfish because you are resisting and trying to break free of these rules. You are selfish because you are not 'sacrificing' your core beliefs for the family. There is also a good amount of hidden love and protectiveness that a parent shows when a child puts their feet into untested waters. But, can the parents not also see their child's grief ? Maybe give them a chance ? But you love your parents the most and hence you are still fighting to put your points and views across and you know it is going to be a long painful battle. But, no one said the doing the right thing will be easy always. The thing is, people have different ideas of what is right and wrong and that makes things complicated.

Side Effects:

Numerous amounts of emotional and mental breakdowns. You question your beliefs and decisions each time. Distancing yourself from people who add negativity to the situation. You might tend to overload the person closest to you with your emotional baggage. This can make that person go cuckoo in the head as well. You can cry uncontrollably at different points with the slightest of stimulus to do so. Its not just crying, but over reacting on things is another side effect. Sometimes the frustration comes from the fact that the person who you are talking to, might be not getting it completely. They might be making their own judgements in their head.

Some tips for survival:

Always refocus. We can always get fixated on the pressure points but we need to focus our mind on different things to keep our sanity. Do those things that'll help you breathe and feel free. Also, divide your emotional baggage between your few different members of family or friends whom you feel close to. Do some meditation or prayer which will help you to calm down. Maybe even dancing to some crazy tune might help or singing out loudly in your non-melodious voice.

:)

Regards,

MadlyYours